Insomnia

It’s just gone 5am and I’ve been awake for nearly 3 hours. This isn’t the first time this week, but it is the first time I gave up the tossing the turning for more constructive activities. It seems Insomnia has come a-calling.

I don’t often have a problem with Sleep – we get on famously. For me to be at my best, 10 hours a night is almost mandatory. Don’t get me wrong, I can function perfectly well on 7 or 8 hours, but 10 is gravy.

So I’m figuring that Stress is giving Sleep the old heave ho. Instead of being well rested to handle Stress during what is becoming a normal (stress-filled and hectically busy) work day, I’m up half the night trying to tell Stress that I’ll deal with it in a few hours. It’s not listening and I get the sense that it’s taking perverse pleasure in watching me squirm.

I’m taking preventative measures, like going to bed as late as I can manage, cos by 7pm I’m pretty exhausted, and reading my book until I just can’t keep my eyes open. But usually less than 5 hours later, I’m wide awake. Having nothing to do before going to work, I lie quietly in bed until it’s time to get up. Then I work a 10-hour day in the hopes that I’ll be tired enough to sleep through the night, but it’s just not happening.

Thankfully I’ve discovered McNabs energy tablets, which work wonders for me (although I know they don’t have the same effect on everyone). In my increasingly bleary state of mind, I figure these little sachets are going to be the only thing that keep me from driving my (in great need of a service) car off a bridge. That and a regular intake of Seattle grande cappucino from the garage shop on the way to work before 6am.

It’s now a little before 6am (on a frikking Sunday) and I’m going to see if I can catch another hour or so of shut eye. Wish me luck.